So, I think we all have a moment(or in my case many more) in our adolescence that we feel stupid about.An embarrassing moment, that forever, no matter how we turned out, makes us feel very insignificant and a bit of a loser. Here is one of the biggest. I am late for class. I am running full speed through the halls of Schimelpfenig Middle School in Plano, Texas. Suddenly, my brand new pair of Keds caught on the red carpet and sent me flying through the air. I landed with a thud flat on my face. The first thing that ran through my mind was," Oh, good everyone else is in class. No one saw me." Then I hear a voice from behind."Nice one, Milton!" Oh my Gosh!!! Who is that? They know me, they said my name! Crap! I get up to see Mike. So cute, really popular, shocked he knew my name, and probably the worst person to have witness my flight. Nice.
Today, that memory came flooding back when I found (on, you guessed it, Face Book) the witness to that moment. I didn't think he even remembered me. I thought I was a total loser. Curly hair, huge glasses, you can picture it. Some of you HAVE a picture of it! So, I reminded him of that moment, and although he never said he remembered that particular time, what he said wiped out all the embarrassment of it. He thought I had the most perfect lips he had ever seen and he had always wanted to kiss them! WHAT! Somebody actually noticed me. I can only say I am so flattered and it makes me feel so good.
It is amazing how we can hold on to our insecurities and they all come flooding back now and again. Sometimes, looking at the lives of others, we can feel that we just don't "add up" to what we should have become. As a mother of seven, I can get to feeling down about my weight and never having gone to college. I am not saving the world. I have done very little traveling. There are a million things I want to do some day. I used to be a pretty good writer. etc...
I made the right decisions for me. I am happy with them, but some days, I just wonder what things night have been like if I made other decisions.
It is the little things that make me happy! The compliment I received today really lifted me up. Thanks, Mike!
I so probably shouldn't post this entry, but it is me. It is what I am feeling. I am human. We all are. Now you have a little more black mail info on me. It is what it is.
Modern Coastal Designer Looks for Less
7 years ago
Well put "Milton"! I have lots of those moments in memory, however, I probably wouldn't be brave enough to post them. :-)
ReplyDeleteAmy, You crack me up! I remember so many of those situations, the ones you now hope will help your children when they face the same types of things. You are an amazing example to all of us with the patience and the hips to have seven children! You are raising wonderful, society contributing children. You are an amazing wonderful friend, mother, and daughter. You add up to spectacular in my book! By the way, I was always jealous of those lips and your blush eye-shadow ;)
ReplyDeleteOh, so nice of you gals! I didn't mean to get my ego a boost when I posted, but hey, I'll take the extra compliments!!! I don't know what women would do without eachother.
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